A Nervous Tic Motion of the Head

Hi everyone.

Sorry for the radio silence.

So, in the last week, I've been sitting on the script, and have delivered the video into the able hands of Rachelle Beckerman. While it was mildly traumatic to give up my computer, it's really fun to watch what someone else does with the stuff, and I find that I can get so much more done when I'm not farting around on the internet at night!

I was dragging my feet about memorizing the script, so I did what I know best. I made a little schedule with deadlines.

Then, I recorded the whole script into my little tape recorder. I did this in my car -- both because it's a private enclosed space that makes a pretty good sound booth, and also because I felt safe and invisible when I was sitting inside of it. I did this in between shows, when the car was parked on the street in Greenwich Village. I'm sure that people thought I was crazy. I'm also sure they saw crazier things on the street that day.

I drove down to the beach that night to visit a friend. And you know, every time I get in my car, I think about how all the alternate side parking, and car insurance, and hassle associated with having a car in New York just melts away as soon as I start driving away from the city. And I had that same feeling, you know, of "I could go anywhere tonight. I'm on my way to Avalon, NJ, but really, I could go anywhere from here." I don't know what that thing is, but it is strong with me.

Now, once I got to Avalon, NJ, I was very happy to be there and sad to leave. It was so nice and comfortable to sit on a big couch and drink wine and hold a baby. But I wondered if it was only so nice because I knew I had just the one day? It felt really good to be at rest and not in motion, though. But I'm still scared of being at rest in the wrong place. So I'm still in motion, looking for the very best place to be at rest.

What I'm telling you, is that the problem whose solution is is kind of the story of the show is actually still a problem. I haven't solved it at all and I am a fraud.

I feel fine about that.

xo
Elizabeth